Inside the mind of a Japanese culture obsessed computer geek

YAY

2008-05-06T14:22:07Z

I just got my VAMPS tickets!! Whoo hoo there for the 8-2 show :D *is excited*

Hydeism

2008-05-01T01:24:10Z

Hydeism Symptoms:

Uncontrollable urge to say "OMG"
Must buy everything that has the word hyde on it.
Spend more money on hyde than food.
The first thing you do in the morning is watch or listen to him.
You think about him constantly.
You wonder things like "would hyde like this" or "would hyde be proud of me because of this?"
You have had sexual dreams of hyde.
You daydream about him all day.
You wish your name was megumi.
You have more pictures of hyde tham family members.
You carry a picture of hyde with you at all times.

If you or a loved one suffer from hydeism do not a call a doctor because its not curable. Once infected you start to rapidly loose brain cells and your vocabulary is reduced to "OMG, hot, sex, die" . Being deprived of hyde will not cure you! It just makes it worse! So please dont even try.

Even though yourself or your loved one might not be able to complete a full sentence without saying hyde. I can assure you they are happier than they have ever been.

VAMPS concert help

2008-04-21T20:20:43Z

I need some help from the people on here who has been to concerts in Japan. My friend </a></b></a>melissaluvzhyde and I are going to be going to Sendai to see VAMPS and we noticed all of the shows seem to be general admission. Is general admission in Japan the same as it is here? Is your spot in line based on first come first serve ? We are going to be staying in Tokyo and want to take the train to Sendai and have even thought about camping out the night before the show if it is allowed but only if it is first come first serve. Has anyone had any experience with this? I am really short and need to get as close as possible to the stage so i can see. I still haven't bought tickets yet because the only ones that are available right now are the FC tickets and when i bought a FC ticket for larc the seats were just given out randomly and you don't receive them until about 2 weeks or so before the show which makes it difficult for me because I'm going to be in NYC for a while before flying to Tokyo and I'm afraid i wouldn't receive the tickets on time but if its not on a first come first serve basis would we have better luck getting a good spot with a FC ticket?

Any help or advice would be great appreciated!

It's sad

2008-04-20T19:49:22Z

All this weekend, I have been at the flea market trying to make some extra cash for Japan this summer and over the past couple of days i have saw countless men of all different sizes, races, ages, etc and you know I didn't find any of them even remotely appealing..

But i come straight home and get on my PC and find this

now THAT is one hot man! I don't know what my problem is maybe I'm comparing every guy i see to HYDE and I'm sorry but NO ONE can live up to his sexiness but today I tried to find a cute guy... i really did. I was bored and i just sat there watching guys and I just could not find one of them that i was attracted to or maybe its just because I'm so in love with HYDE that i just don't want anyone else.

If i keep up at this rate i'll be alone for the rest of my life...

Pic Spam

2008-04-19T15:29:31Z

This is probably the most sexy picture i have ever saw of HYDE... EVER!

and here is the same pic photoshopped to remove the text... I really messed up on the nose but removing the txt there and fixing his nose back was pretty difficult.

and finally I found this today it was something i drew a few years back with my wacom tablet and illustrator. This one is kinda big so im going to put it behind a cut.

Drink It Down Papercraft

2008-04-04T20:07:57Z

I just got my single in today and thought i would share the little paper craft with everyone since i didn't see any other posts about it. BTW if anyone has hyde and wants to trade let me know.

Sorry I know the picture isn't great i took it i a hurry so i could start watching the DVD *is too impatient*

OMG

2008-03-28T02:07:46Z

Im getting way too excited about going to Japan its still months away but I can't help it! Its all i can think of. I need to see HYDE so bad and im loving the new name for his band .... VAMPS ... lol silly little man. Im getting concert tickets and possibly plane tickets in a few weeks or would iike to but i am definitely buying the concert tickets within the next two weeks or so. Im so happy that Melissa is trying to go and really happy kyle is going too!!! its going to be a blast!!!!

BTW look and drool (clicky) I love the piercing sooooo much!

NYC was great! Had probably the best time of my life although i was definitely wore out when we came home and getting sick right after really sucked. I loved it though! you can see all my pictures i took here http://picasaweb.google.com/tracycrum/NYC02 We stayed in a hostel it wasn't too bad really definitely not the nicest thing in the world but not the worst either. NYC is insanely expensive though went though 1500 dollars in about 5 days!

Me and Kyle saw rent what time we were there. It was AWESOME! The songs go though my head all the time now. I loved the movie when i saw it but the musical is just so much better plus we got autographs after the show :D

It was just such a great time and i can't wait to go back this summer!! we are going to NYC and then flying out of NYC to Japan :D

Going to NYC!

2008-02-26T16:04:06Z

Yes i know its been forever since i have even looked at my LJ im a very bad LJer but to be perfectly honest I just dont like to write never have really. i really don't even like sending emails but i can txt and IIM all day so ... i dont know im just a little weird.

But anyway...

Im going to NYC! first time ever! Im going with my friend during his spring break. Its going to be sooo much fun. We are going to be seeing RENT what time we are there too and that alone is just awesome :D other than that we have no real plans so i guess we will see what all happens. We fly out March 8 and get back March 16 im sooo excited!!

If anyone of you managed to get tickets to the Paris show for Larc congratulations maybe they will bless the USA with their presence again but its looking highly unlikely to me.

Oh and BTW when does HYDE concert tickets go on sale? I saw a couple of them on yahoo auction but it wasn't for the show i wanted which is any of the sendai shows. ticket.co.jp doesn't have any right now. Is just FC tickets available now or can the general public buy them also? I'm getting a little worried about being able to get tickets i know its still 5 months away but I need those tickets !!!

Please do this ...

2007-11-14T23:30:14Z

www.larc4everyone.com

I am writing a fan letter to hyde through Le-Ciel and i want to include this website in the letter to him. I dont know i guess i just want to show them how much we love them here and want them to come back. I know it probably won't help any but at least maybe they will know how much we love them!

IF he even gets the letter. I would also like to send it to hydeist too if anyone knows the address?

Personality

2007-10-21T03:00:44Z

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive.

Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men
You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Daybreak's Bell Pictures

2007-10-14T16:43:34Z

Available here

I'm sorry the pictures aren't that great but i took them in kind of a hurry because i wanted to hurry and play my cd

;)

www.fangirlhaven.com

2007-10-05T19:50:15Z

I finally managed to get my domain set up. I have created a fansite for L'arc I am looking for people who would be interested in writing articles, reviews, etc that are l'arc related. Also i want to have a download section were people can request files and one of the members will try to upload whatever they are looking for as long as its not full concerts.

Check out the site and if anyone is interested leave me a comment or email me tracycrum@suddenlink.net

ITS HERE!!!!!!!!

2007-09-15T16:49:52Z

Finally after two and a half miserable days of waiting its finally here! and i got the first press too!! YAYAYAYAY for L'arc post cards. The mailman brought it right to my door thank god it had to be signed for or he would have put a little thing in the box for me to pick it up at the post office and they were closed by the time he ran but that doesnt matter now because its in my hands and soon to be in my dvd player!

fangirlHaven Forum

2007-09-08T14:15:16Z

We are seeking new members on my forum

fangirlHaven

if interested check us out! Its all about Japanese music, culture and fangirling ;) However, due to a member spamming the forum I had to make it registered only so you must register to see the entire forum.

Skinit Ipod Nano skin review

2007-09-05T22:12:47Z

About three weeks ago i decided my poor little ipod needed a change of clothes it was starting to show a lot of wear from my abuse and frequent use. I wanted to get something that still gave me easy access to the wheel and didn't make my ipod big or that would defeat the point in having a nano so i decided i would try out www.skinit.com especially since you can upload your own photos to be used.

First off let me say this company offers skins for EVERYTHING and i mean everything more than likely if you can't find a skin for it there it doesn't exist. They have an unbelievable selection of skins to choose from but if you still can't find one to suit you just create your own :D

I chose the latter i wanted to create my own skin because unfortunately they did not have any of hyde or l'arc.

The skin arrives very well packaged in a strong cardboard type envelope. The skin itself also seems very durable its a vinyl type of material but seems pretty resistant to tearing.

The only thing i can really complain about is putting the thing on its almost impossible to line it up correctly but dont worry about having to pull it off a couple of times to get it straight i re did mine about 4 times and the skin still stuck wonderful however i did notice it was starting to winkle up a little so the last time put it on i just left it as it was i was afraid it was going to tear or stretch the skin.

The skin doesn't cover the entire ipod which kinda sucks the sides and top and bottom are still open to scratches.

Since its so hard to line up i would recommend getting one that blends in well with your color of ipod nano i have the silver one and my skin is mostly black so its easy to see that the skin isn't aligned properly but if my ipod were black it wouldn't have been much of an issue and this might not bother some people but seeing the little bit of silver just reminds me that i didn't get it on perfect and its just annoying to me.

Here are some pic of how the skin looks on my ipod.

Vote Please

2007-07-17T12:53:30Z

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Vote for L'arc as the best band in the world! They are number #13 right now!! We just have three days left.

Next Sunday ....

2007-05-07T02:26:11Z

Is my birthday!

I'll be 25. It seems weird though that I am just 5 years away from 30. There days it seems like time goes so slow and then there days I wonder were time has gone. This should be an interesting year though and I can't wait to see what surprises it brings.

BTW here are a couple of pictures of a 3D model i am working on using Maya. There no lighting yet and i have a ton more work to do but this is what i have done so far.

TrueVision3D

2007-05-02T06:24:39Z

I am a computer geek there no denying that I love computers and anything else that runs off electricity. I love learning how circuits work, I love discrete math, and in all honestly I just love to learn. I get bored very easily and usually when I get bored I pick up something new to learn. Lately I have been working with a 3D game engine called TrueVision3D and i have to say this is absolutely one of the coolest 3D game engines I have ever worked with. 1) its more of a wrapper for DirectX than an actual engine 2) It works with multiple languages!

Now i am a die hard C++ programmer. I love C++!!! but when it comes to creating win32 applications C++ can be quite a pain. Just initializing a window can take up to a page of code not to mention getting the event handlers set up. So when it comes to game development I think you are wasting quite a bit of time working with MFC (Microsoft Foundation Classes) programming and this is where TrueVision3D really shines since it can be used with multiple languages (Visual Basic, C#, and C++) you can easily bypass all of the unwanted MFC programming by using either VB or C#. Now they are some down sides to using Visual Basic its not quite as fast as C++ for number crunching so you may see a reduction in your game's frame rates if you create it in Visual Basic. C# on the other hand is quite fast. Microsoft did a wonderful job in combining Visual Basic with C++. It has the ease of use from Visual Basic but has the fast number crunching ability from C++.

But how can this help you bypass the unwanted MFC programming you have to do in C++? Visual Basic and C# both are what are known as RAD or Rapid Application Development IDEs (Integrated Development Environment ). There GUI allows you to "draw" out your window using tools instead of code the actual IDE does all of the programming for the window initializing behind the scene. Combine this with event driven programming and it makes a much easier environment for game development.

Visual Basic and C# both can still be OOP languages though. You can create classes and use inheritance just as you can with C++. So if you are worried you will have to rewrite a lot of code by using this more simple way of programming think again. You can build base classes and build upon them just as easy as in C++.

If your interested in programming, especially 3D programming, I would highly recommend checking out TrueVision3D its free as long as your not planning on selling your game and if you are a single license only cost $150!

Just a reminder: This is not for newbie programmers. If you want to create any type of 3D application you must first have a solid foundation in general programming! So pick a language, anyone that suites you best, and start programming! Once you have learned the basics slowly move up into 3D. Also don't forget about those data structures. Linked listed, stacks, queues, hash tables, binary trees, all of that fun stuff is used in game development. Also if you are thinking about programming your own AI its good to have at least a general knowledge of Finite State Machines (FSM).

You know I just can't understand

2007-04-26T18:50:05Z

I know everyone is entitled to their own opinions about things, people, etc but sometimes they try so hard to make other people believe their opinion is the only one that counts. What makes them believe they are such "gods" that if they don't like something no one else should? Or because they don't like it it just has to be bad. I don't know people with that type of attitude annoy me to the point were sometimes I just snap and tell them how stupid they are.

I find this type of one sided views more in the L'arc fandom than anywhere else and its mostly about Hyde's singing. Yes sometimes his voice is off and yes sometimes he does scream to the top of his lungs for no apparent reason whatsoever but he is good enough to one of the most popular vocalist in Japan for the past 15 years.

It doesn't annoy me when someone says Hyde's singing was bad or that they didn't like a song thats their opinion but what does annoy me is when people who have studied music in the past try to analysis everything he does and try to force other people to believe that because they are a "musician" they know for a fact his singing was bad and if you like the song you can't be a true fan of the band or else you would be able to criticize them too instead of trying to love everything they do because their years of musical training has given the world a proven fact that the song was bad.

If these people are so good why don't they have a record contract? And why aren't they selling out tours in a matter of minutes with fans swarming to them like flies?

Unfortunately, peer pressure still exists today, even on the internet, and a lot of people still haven't learned how to deal with it properly and will allow "internet bullies" so to speak push them around. They are afraid to express their opinions because they know they will get "flamed" if they do. Its ridiculous and sad at the same time that we have started taking the internet so seriously. I mean think about it. Do we use our real names online? No, we come up with alias' for other people to identify us. Would we give our address, phone number or other personal information to just any random person online? I would hope not! The internet is a virtual world were we can connect and communicate with people worldwide its just like a huge multi player game were everyone is allowed to join in and have fun. It allows us to escape from reality for a while and talk to people you would have never had a chance to talk to in real life. So why do people try to take the fun out of everything? Why do they think they are so superior to everyone else that they are the only thing that matters? I believe these people just crave attention. They like for people to "believe" they are the best and they think it makes them look cool when in all honestly I think it makes them look shallow and desperate and childish especially when they are usually at least 20+ years old.

Friends Only

2007-04-25T18:00:10Z

If you have read my profile you know I don't like to be bothered with stupid people I know that sounds mean but its the truth they annoy me greatly. Because of that reason I have decided to make this "Friends Only" so it will be easy to wade out the people I would just rather ignore. If you want to be added as a friend leave me a comment as long as you don't fit into the categories of:

1. Closed minded individual
2. Think you are superior to everyone else

you will more than likely get added.

People you will find on my friends will include:

1. Computer geeks
2. Music lovers
3. Hyde fans
4. Japan lovers
5. Gamers
6. Anyone who doesn't fit into the "norm" of society
7. Everyone else who isn't in the categories mentioned above.

I'm not trying to say everyone mentioned above aren't stupid people; I'm sure there are a bunch of them in those categories as well but the ones you find on here will not be.